Even though my son is half Asian, I have never actually considered my son to be Asian. I have always raised my son to be a white man, and I have always encouraged him to hang out with other white boys and steered him clear of Asian influence, especially from mainland Chinese, of which there are always a lot on campus.

My son is 18 years old and is currently attending college and I’m proud to see him hanging out with white boys. Every Sunday he brings a bunch of friends over to our house (all 18 to 19 years old, true-blue, pure-bred white boys) just to hang out, play video games, or, as the white boys liked to say, “shoot the shit”.

A few times I caught them watching porn. After I come home from grocery, I saw them sitting in the living room and there were videos of naked girls on mute splattered across the TV screen. I was mildly surprised when I realized the girls were Asian. It flashed across my mind that those white boys were attracted to Asian girls, and while I did not mean to intrude too much into their lives, I think boys will always just be boys, I did ask them on one occasion what kind of girls they were interested in, and while I tried my best to hide my true emotions, I still appeared extremely flattered when they all said “Asian.”

What about white girls? I asked them, and the uniform answer I got from them was that Asian girls were hotter. When I prodded further, like asking them what kind of porn were you guys watching, having explicitly told them beforehand that I’m okay with them watching porn, one of them told me, “Watching amateur Asian girls getting gangbanged by white guys.” My face turned red when I heard the answer and I didn’t want to ask further questions and later that night I had a wet dream, something that has not happened to me in years.

A few other times I overheard them joking about fucking me like I was the actress in those pornos. They were saying stuffs like “your mom is an Asian MILF,” “Dude your Asian mom is hotter”, “Your mom must have a really tight Asian pussy”, “I want to fuck your Asian mom in front of her husband,” etc. Apparently they were talking to my son and they had thought my son’s dad was Asian.

As a recently divorced woman, as a woman who is quickly approaching the peak of her sexuality and who is now on the waning curve of looks, you have no idea how incredibly turned on I was at those remarks. Ever since then I can’t stop thinking about how much I want to wrap my lips around those hard young white cocks or have them shoved deep inside my pussy and I rubbed my pussy every night thinking about their crude remarks. The fact that they loved me for being Asian made me constantly horny, and it’s a thing that I have always found myself being attracted to ever since I was a teenager.

I’ve started to dress more provocatively whenever those white boys come over to my house. I put on my choker necklace and mini skirt and when they were around the living room I cleaned the floor by getting on my hands and knees so they could catch glimpses of my ass. I walked around barefoot in the house and one time after one of them used the bathroom I stepped on something gooey and after examining it I realized it was actually cum. I didn’t say anything and used some tissues to clean up the mess but before I tossed the cum covered tissue in the garbage can I actually held it to my nose and inhaled it and the smell was so mesmerizing I almost wanted to rub my pussy immediately.

Last Sunday I decided to do something that was a little bit more risky. I decided to walk in front of them completely naked. Even though I’ve lived in the United States for the majority of my life, I did go to junior high in Japan and I’ve always been in tune with my Asian cultural heritage. My father is Japanese and still lives in Japan and when I went back to Japan to visit him and other distant Japanese family members, a few Japanese friends of mine took me to a public onsen in Japan and everyone—both male and female—bathed together naked and there was no stigma being attached to nudity, as we have here in America.

I found out very early on that in Japanese culture it’s normal for a mother to be naked in front of her son and ever since I became a mother myself, this has been the practice that I’ve kept so my son is actually used to seeing me naked.

My American ex-husband liked to keep me naked around the house and did not allow me to put on clothes even when strangers showed up. He used to have a naked photography of me in the foyer of our house–in that photo my hands and feet were bound, my pussy, ass and tits were prominently displayed, and my face was at such an angle that it was looking directly at the camera, almost like a mug shot, so everyone could recognize that face when they saw the actual person. Thus it was that my naked Asian body was always the first thing everyone saw when they came in the house. I was a trophy wife and my ex-husband always told me that trophies need to be displayed.

But this first time I was doing this on my own, putting myself on display, without the protege of my husband, and I was doing it in front of a bunch of testosterone filled white American boys, young white males who are starved and sexually frustrated, who potentially would have loved to take out their frustration on me, and the more I thought about it the more excited I became. I was also very nervous because I didn’t know how they would respond.

Initially I simply walked out of my bedroom completely naked, went over to the kitchen to grab some drink, and then quickly walked back in. I heard one boy yell, “Wow!” I didn’t react to it but after I closed the bedroom door I heard another person say, “Dude, did you see your mom!” My son explained that it’s normal and that “My mom loves naked in front of people. That is nothing to be shocked.”

I did that a few more times until they became completely inured to my presence, and then the last time I came out, they even started to chat with me, just as if I was fully clothed. It was a bit surreal as all of them were wearing clothes but I was not. But it made me feel so proud because of how extra-friendly they have become all of a sudden, almost too-friendly, the kind friendliness where you know that they had an ulterior motive.

I explained to them that in Japanese culture it’s normal for a woman to be naked in front of teenage boys because we believe it’s better to expose young men to female sexuality so they do not feel that females are mysterious.

I also told them that while I’m not opposed, I think it’s not healthy for young men to be watching porn all the time, because I have seen them watching porn too many times and I told them: “Real women are not like that. If you want to see a real woman, I’m right here.” I also brought condoms from the store and I told them that it’s important for young men to be educated about sex and I gave out one piece to each of them. I kept the rest in a drawer on my night stand and told them that “condoms are always available and you can find them inside my bedroom.”

It felt so exhilarating as I could feel all of their eyes hitting my body like lasers. That Sunday they were supposed to stay until 5 o’clock and leave but none of them was leaving and they said they all wanted to stay overnight and I ended up cooking dinner for all of them still completely naked.

I could tell all of them were having stiff hard cocks inside their pants and they used every opportunity to touch all over my body. A few times they would brush by me, feel my ass, cup my breasts, pinch my nipples or bear-hug me from behind. One of them rummaged through the garage and found the bondage ropes my ex husband used to tie me up with and asked me if I enjoyed SM and wondered if we could play geisha and cowboys after dinner.

I did draw the line at touching my pussy because I told them while they were free to play with my breasts and ass, only my son was allowed touch my pussy. But another reason for that was because my pussy was literally soaking wet and I could feel juice flowing down my thighs. I was a bit shy about letting them find out just how horny I actually was.

But to be honest I haven’t been so turned on in such a long time and being naked in front of those young white men made me so ecstatic I wish I could get gang banged by all those hot white boys. I wanted to tell those white boys that it’s okay to have Asian fetish. I wanted to tell them that I actually love being objectified by white men. While I agree fundamentally that feminism is about treating women with respect, and treating women as equals, principles which all those white boys adhere to (they have to because they have been brainwashed by those ideologies in college), feminism is also about giving women what they truly desire, and not shaming women for wanting something that is a little bit kinkier than normal.