Once you have the courage to take the first step, it seems, you will get over it rather quickly, and it becomes routine, almost boring, like eating rice everyday or going to work.

The guy takes me to his apartment. I strip naked, crawl on top of the table in the living room. He puts a black dog collar around my neck and cuff handcuffs on my wrists. Then he sets up the camera and starts filming. My entire body, from head to toe, is within the video frame. My face is fully visible as well.

He steps out of his boxers, waddles over to my ass with his big white cock swinging and glistening with pre-cum. I wait anxiously and I feel his hand slapping my bare ass. The tip of his cock, warm and slimy, touches my bare skin and his hand runs over my back.

I whimper and he tugs the leash attached to my dog collar and slaps me a little harder and faster and I feel blood rushing to my ass and my face is getting flushed too. He walks over to the side, so his cock is facing the camera, and continues to slap my ass, while his other hand, massive and bugling with veins, presses down on the back of my neck, like how you handle a small pet. I squirm and wiggle my ass. He starts touching himself, apparently excited.

He walks over to the front, lifts my face up by the chin, and slaps my face. The slapping sound reverberates in the silent room. I look up and smile coyly and he puts his thumb in my mouth and let me suckle on it. By now his penis is fully erect. Then he puts two fingers into my mouth and starts sliding it back and forth. I suckle on it, and look at the camera. I smile.

His cock is bulging now and he starts thrusting his cock in and out of my mouth. I take his cock and tilt my head so my face is facing the camera, and again I smile.

His waist swings back and forth and he pumps his cock into my mouth in rhythm and presses my head towards his crotch. He plays with my hair and then tugs on the leash. My face is flushed more and I feel a tingling sensation in my pussy.

He holds the other end of the leash and whips my back with it as he continues to pump his cock back and forth into my mouth. The room is silent and there is no other sound besides the flailing sound the leash makes against my flesh and the occasional gagging sound from my throat.

Then he groans. After he groans, he says yes, in English. That is the only conversation we have since the beginning of our sex session. He takes his cock out of my mouth and starts slapping my face again. My hands, handcuffed, are obediently placed on the table. He slaps me across my face hard and I hear ringing in my ears.

He grabs my hair and starts pumping into my mouth and I gag. The sound of my mouth smackering against his cock which is hitting the back of my throat replaces the ringing noise in my ears.

I gag and cough and back away from his cock as I try to catch some breathe. He backs away, then pushes forward again and presses his cock into my mouth again. I stick my tongue out and licks his cock, to avoid him gagging me again. He points at the camera. I look at the camera and imagines the image of myself: my Asian face, with a white cock. My heart throbs and my pussy spasms.

He slaps my face yet again, indicating that it’s time to get serious, and starts deep-throating into my mouth. I squeeze my eyes and open my mouth wide. It feels like swallowing mouthwash, as I regurgitate and try to throw it up before it enters my stomach–refreshing, painful, and healthful to the soul.

After a few pumps he finally let go of my head and slaps my ass as I lower my head to cover my red cheeks. My ass cheeks are just as red as my face by now.

He walks over to my behind, and aims his cock at my ass. He plunges it in without a condom.

I look in the direction of the camera again. Then I turn my head to look at him. He smiles and slaps my ass.

He puts his hands on my hips and start pumping. I feel my pussy moisten and my heartbeat increase. My hair is a mess. There is a sheen of sweat on my forehead.

He starts increasing speed and I feel pain inside me, a stinging sensation accompanied by the feeling of being completely filled.

He slaps my ass again as I yelp out in pain, and he continues, but at a slower pace.

He puts his hands on my waist area. His hands are so big that the tips of his fingers touch my rib cages. He pumps me hard and fast and I squeal and groan in pain. My lips part wide and I feel my own saliva drooling onto my hands. I feel the muscles around my inner thigh tighten and moisture is coming out of my pussy. My whole body starts to rock back and forth to his motion, my breasts wiggles beneath me like being blown by the wind.

He reaches toward my face and grabs the leash lying next to me and grabs hold of it. His hand brushes against my face and I feel how cold his hand is, and realize how hot my face is.

He tugs the leash as he continues to pump in and out of my ass and I feel the dog collar tighten around my neck, which makes me suffocate and gasp for air. There is now a fire building through my entire lower body and my heart starts racing.

He pulls out of me and walks over to my face and stick his cock, which just a few minutes ago is inside my own ass, into my mouth. I put it in my mouth and starts sucking.

I’m on all fours for all this time and I sense stinging pain in my kneels. My palms are red from supporting myself, then I change to supporting myself with my elbows and my elbows are sore.

As he pumps his soiled cock in and out of my mouth he grabs the camera with his other hand and holds it in his hand as he films me sucking his cock from above. He lowers the camera so it’s level to my face, and he tells me to “Look at the camera and smile.” I swallow a mix of my own saliva, his precum, and my ass juice and glances at the LED light on the metallic optical etui.

He grabs my neck and squeezes, and pumps hard before he let go of me and walks over to my ass. My ass and feet are nearly touching each other and dangling over the edge of the table. The rough edge cuts into my flesh and it’s uncomfortable.

He shows the video recording and I see my ass is covered with deep red marks. I cover my face in shame and bite my own lips. I feel my nipples harden and I try to squeeze my legs together as a wave of orgasm is building inside me.

He continues to stick his cock back into my ass. My asshole feels it’s being split apart and it feels raw and painful. I yelp out in pain and he slaps my ass again to shut me up. He grabs my hair and pushes my head backward. My whole body is convulsing and I’m starting to orgasm from anal.

The yelping morphs into whimpering as I feel waves of pleasure rush to my brain.

He groans as well and yet he is not finished.

He flips me on my back and gags my mouth with a ball gag. My handcuffed wrists are lifted over my head. He continues to punish my asshole. My whimpering morphs into pleading. The pleasure becomes painful murmuring, the painful murmuring becomes pleasurable moaning as pleasure and pain mix together and I enter delirium.

The video is still recording and the idea that the video will, if he wish, be shown to my parents, my classmates, my colleagues, my supervisors, and all the friends who know me push me over the edge yet again and I orgasm.

I’m being made into a whore, a free whore, for western men, and even worse, an anal whore. Even real Chinese prostitutes don’t do anal. Those thoughts flash before my mind and, after just the second wave, another wave starts to build.

My whole body is being thrown and tossed around like a rag doll. He continues to pump in and out of my ass. He pulls out, flips me over, put me on all fours again and restart the torment. He is now doing it faster and harder. I sense he is on the edge of cumming. I cooperate and start to moan loudly.

He slows down and pulls out. Half of his cum is deposited into my rectum. The other half is dripped on my ass. I lie prostate on the table, panting.

He shakes the few last drops of semen on my ass, like he is peeing at a urinal.

With my ass up and my face down, I close my eyes. He takes the camera, holds it close to my ass and pussy, and then holds it to my face. “Smile for the camera.” he says to me. I open my eyes and smile.

We walk together into the bathroom to clean up. He leads me to the door, kiss me, and says goodbye. I go home, with the video, and watch myself being fucked by yet another white man. I start touching myself and before I know what is happening, I masturbate myself to another orgasm.

Next weekend, I have scheduled to meet yet another white man, and he will repeat what is done. There are 52 weeks in a year, and I have being fucked by 52 different white men. This is just the snapshot of a day in my life as an Asian slut.

It’s as quotidian as eating rice and going to work, on repeat.