In the past, many many years ago, when people joked that a lot of asian women were white worshiping sluts, I would become angry and vehemently deny it. I told them it was not true at all.

Then about a year ago I think I was still ashamed, ashamed that, while such horrible stereotypes about asian women existed, many of my Asian girlfriends were perpetuating those stereotypes by dating white guys, myself included. No longer I felt anger but I still felt ashamed and humiliated, and in my lingering modicum of shame I still insisted, “No, not all Asian girls are like that,” and I liked to fancy that I myself certainly was not one of them. Sure, I was also dating white guys, but I was different. I was not like those other Asian sluts who worship white cocks.

Fast forward to today … I’m now a full blown white cock slut, unabashed.

Ever since I had my first white cock, I’ve become convinced of my errors. I could no longer deny it. White cock felt so good inside my pussy. There was a struggle inside me. On the one hand, I wanted to present myself as a respectable, well-educated, genteel Chinese lady; on the other hand, I had a craving that I was never able to satisfy. I needed to be degraded during sex. I enjoyed the feeling of being conquered, subjugated, and enslaved by my white owner, and those conflicting feelings were tearing me apart.  

I was deeply traumatized when my boyfriend left me for a white woman. I always felt myself inferior to white women–I think deep down all Asian women feel that–and it hurt me very deeply.  To forget him I met another white man who was 30 years older than me. I told him that I wanted to become his sex slave and that was what he did to me. Our relationship was purely physical at first. We had very rough and degrading sex that involved me being treated like a pet. I crawled around naked in his apartment. I let him tie me up and spank me. He also put clamps on my nipples and took photos of me. Those photos he shared with his friends and also posted on his own social media, with my consent. He also started to share me with his friends, all of whom were white American men in their 50s and every other weekend I was gangbanged. Videos of my gang bang sessions were also shared on his own social media, and because of my presence, he had garnered a significant amount of followers, and from those followers, he selected men who would join him and they would gangbang me together.

I was his exclusive property and I enjoyed it. I have even become addicted.

At some point I have had so many white cocks I lost count. I felt myself like a prostitute, a very cheap prostitute, who gave herself to every man, no matter the size of their cocks or how they smelled. It’s gotten so out of control now whenever I see a white guy walking down the street, all I can think about him is his cock. I wonder about its size, the shape of his shaft, the fleshy mushroom head, the color of his pubes, which often matched the color of their beard, and then I think about how it will stretch out my tiny Asian pussy and I imagine licking up his cum with my tongue after he cums. I’ve become the white worshiping Asian slut that I once detested.

And just like most of my other Asian girlfriends, I’m now a white cock only slut. My pussy, my ass, and my mouth are reserved “only for white men”. The term reminds of the white-only restrooms during the Segregation. I’m a white only meat urinal. Only white men are allowed to use me, urinate on me, dump their cum inside me, and, I shudder to think of it, someday, white men may even force me to eat their feces and use me as their toilet. Or even take my life. Permanently damage me, scar me. It scares me to think how depraved I’ve become, and it terrifies me that I even think of giving my everything to fulfill my worship of my white owner.

The other day my master arranged a foursome for me and one of my other Asian sisters. She was from Thailand and her master was also an old white man. We connected with each other. She was ethnic Chinese born in Thailand and her parents emigrated to Thailand 20 years ago. She was 19 years old. 

The night was delicious. We all sat together and had Chinese food and watched WMAF porn. Our white masters joked that after the Chinese food, our Chinese pussies will be their dessert.

My whole body was one sense, and imbibed pleasure through every pore.

Big white cocks were my dessert after the pork dumplings dipped in black chinkiang vinegar. We both sucked their cocks and we switched between partners and our white masters critiqued our oral techniques and made snide remarks about who was a better cock sucker. Then they took turns spitroasting me and my Asian sister-friend. Someone suggested taking a picture and surely they did. The iphone camera was flashing as I had a cock inside my mouth. I felt like a porn star, and it made me feel so sexy. The picture, as you could imagine, was also now posted on my master’s social media profile. Last time he allowed me to check it, it had received more than 1,000 likes and he said he has received hundreds of messages from men who would like to fuck me. But that’s another story for another day.

After they both shot their cums inside us, my Asian sister and I 69’ed on the floor to entertain our masters, who sat naked on chairs in the living room and they joked that we were both “white-worshiping Asian sluts”, as a term of endearment, the same term that once riled me when I first heard it, many many years ago, but now … when I heard it, I just smiled. The sweetness of my Asian sister’s cum-drenched pussy still lingered in my mouth.  

I feel so happy being able to finally accept myself for who I am.