I love big white American white men and I love their cum. I love their cum on my face. I wear their cum on my face like a badge of pride. I love their cum on my body. I smear their cum over my breasts and I use their cocks to tickle with my nipples. I love their cum in my mouth. I play with their cum inside my mouth with my tongue, and, of course, more than everything, I love their cum inside me. I swallow their delicious cum and even after they have gone soft I will drain and squeeze every last drop of their gorgeous white cocks.

And I have sucked and fucked so many white American cocks, that have included my boss, my supervisor, my manager, a lot of my colleagues as well as friends, acquaintances, and former classmates while I was studying in college in America. I love America because it’s the most beautiful country on earth and it’s also the most powerful country.

As I’m writing this a wave is sweeping over me, and my craving for white cock is working itself up from my belly to my throat. I’m shriveling and sniffing as I’m literally hungering for another big white cock to fill me and there seems to be no satisfying me no matter how many white cocks I have sucked and fucked. I think I’m a sex addict and sometimes I wonder if I need therapy.

A lot of my American guy friends take advantage of my addiction but I don’t complain. In fact, a lot of my Chinese girlfriends were curious about my lifestyle and think I’m very courageous to live out my life so unapologetically. They often ask me how they could meet and find handsome white men to be in love with. In private they always tell me how they are sick and tired of small Chinese dicks and they would never have sex with a Chinese guy even if they will die alone.

I live in Shanghai and there are like 10 million leftover Chinese women. Leftover women are young Chinese women between the age of 20 to 40 who are single and childless.

Just now I was thinking about all the handsome white men who live in Shanghai and who can fuck as many Chinese women as they want and my torso was twisting in pain and frustration. I had to clench my fist to stop myself from reaching into my panties and rub my clit.

I don’t actually believe that I’ve “kinky” as some people tell me. I just love the sight of a nice looking white cock, and I love seeing how good my body makes them feel. I love watching and feeling a white man’s engorged cock shoot cum and I love being drenched in their cum. I honestly think this is what every Chinese woman want and I’m just being more honest about it.

About half of the time I would experience white men cumming inside me. I’d be in the middle of having my pussy or ass getting pounded and I enjoy it so much when he cum inside me and it just makes me feel like we have become one, like how in the mythical past, a woman must leave her family and to be cleaved into a man’s family. There is just something so special when a guy you worship and adore cums for you.

And just now I licked my lips and I’m reminded of the familiar rancid taste of the last few white men who cummed inside my mouth. I’m reminded of the images of their cum flooding into my mouth. I have a sudden sensation that people are watching me. My parents. My son. My ex husband. My classmates from high school. My relatives and friends. They were all watching me curiously and also with contempt. They were watching this yellow slut in her slutty exercise with cold amusement. I suppose this is my shame acting on me. I do feel ashamed sometimes, especially when my slutty behavior was exposed to my family. My parents and my ex-husband knew I was working as a prostitute and so does my son. But I have no regrets. I love admiring big white cocks, their big white shaft, and their fleshy mushroom top; I love touching their tips, watching them blushing with droplets of precum and smelling them in the air. I love watching and feeling their big white cocks pulsate and explode. It’s so much fun. And when young white guys who are inexperienced with Asian women shoot crazy amount, with ropes of cum sprouting far and wide like it’s endless, it just makes me feel like I’ve accomplished my purpose as a woman and as a mother. I feel so sexy and feminine and my whole body glows with happiness.

And the fun doubles when I’m pleasing multiple white guys at the same time. I would curl my hand around the first white cock, carry it into my mouth like I’m taking a sip of Martini’s. After the first one shoots his cum down my throat, another one is shoved into my throat and I swallow as much as I can. All the while the rest of the crew would be watching me, laughing, bantering, cajoling, slapping one another on the back. Sometimes strangers would stare at me when I’m fucking white guys at clubs, and I’d tell my partners to, “Let them stare. Fuck them. Let everyone stare at me.”

And when they have all taken turns on me, I’d be drenched in their cum, and I would be laughing and crying in joy, enjoying all the orgasms and swimming in all their bodily fluid.

There are people out there who think I’m a sick woman, especially Chinese men, who say that I’m a disgrace to China, and a few times I was even threatened with physical violence from insecure Chinese men, but most of the time the Chinese men would only watch in silence. I would carry the big white cock inside my mouth and sluice down his superior my cum down my throat, and they would just stare. My white boyfriend would even ask me if it bothers me that those Chinese men are staring, and I’d tell him in English, “Let them stare, if that’s how they get off. Take a picture if they want. It will last longer.” But when it became too annoying, my white boyfriend would shoo them away like pests.

Of course I know this lifestyle isn’t for everyone, and not all Chinese women are like me. Many Chinese women are very shy and conservative and some would never even touch a foreign men, but you’d be surprised at how many times I’ve been approached by Chinese women who are curious about my lifestyle. I’ve met many other Chinese women living in Shanghai who exclusively date and fuck white men and would never touch a Chinese man. Many more have emigrated to America, Canada, Europe, Australia, and Japan through international marriage to foreign men and I think I will be doing the same very soon because the Chinese economy is nosediving and almost everyone around is thinking about leaving China.

But now I’m rambling. I was in the mood because I just sucked off a group of 19 year old white American boys and their cum is making me dizzy with joy and love. At least one of them said he is going to introduce me to his dad, who is divorced, and take me to America with him so I can become his step mother and continue to have sex with me.