Being a BWC slut is who I am now, or what is left of me. A broken, empty set of holes always burning with hunger for white men and their penises.
The haunting void left behind by white men gets worse now.
Some nights it engulfs me and tries to swallow me whole. Confessing my pain, my sinful lust for abuse and my concupiscence for degradation is the only way I can feel anything at all. It makes my mind go blank and allows me to drift into a serene, nameless happy bliss of ease. Some other times it makes me feel weightless, like a slowly ebbing and flowing stream rhythmically receding from the bank.
It also makes me feel so naked. And so shameful. As if a thousand eyes were on me as they probe and prod into my life, digging and gnawing for more sordid details of my descent into depravity. Thrusting into me, yearning to do even more depraved things as they stretcher deeper and deeper into my flesh, my soul, more than what I’m permitting them.
I don’t like this. I don’t want to be this broken, marked as if by monsters. I hear their words. Memories of their actions course through me. I will never be able to get away.
I wish I was once again an Asian virgin, the virginal Asian girl who never knew the meaning of BWC, bareback gangbang, SM, double penetration, spitroasting, cum swallowing, piss drinking, etc. I feel disgusted with myself just now, knowing that all my holes have been filled to the brim with white meb’s cum.
I miss the innocent me. I miss the 18 year old me.
I feel so estranged and unacquainted with who I am now. I miss feeling pure again. This doesn’t feel good.
But it’s still better than nothing at all.
A Submissive East Asian Woman's Dreams and Fantasies 
Really, regardless of how melancholic it sounds; such a dilemma is not ours to solve. I would even argue that it is, in nature, alien to us men.
Fortunately, you gave us some hints about what makes you feel better, a lot better at elast than exposing your depravity to the whole world.
*Letting my erected White cock out*
Say hello to Mr. make-you-happy! Not only will it make your mind drift into bliss, but it’s also going to make your Asian body feel very good.
even your proof reading is lousy..letting typo pass..you really do need a good ass fucking from a white devil BADLY!
Thank you for reading this inferior Asian whore’s rambling. Regarding proof reading, my personal feeling is that it’s over hyped in the age of artificial intelligence–A.I.’s who can write more poetically, more flawlessly, and more methodically (and even faster) than any real human being can and who, I believe, is now on track to concoct human experiences out of thin air and whose prose (all artificially generated) are permeating through all facets of life, and in this age, perhaps writings that are more genuine–that are more akin to the heart and which is taken by thoughtless, formless, shapeless, in the form of ramblings, in the heat of the moment, a true emotional catharsis, perhaps, that should be more appreciated?–I do not have an answer, in the face of the “philosophical zombie” apocalypse that is unfolding in front of every eyes. What is real anymore? How do I even tell people that I am real? It does not matter in the end, because what I write is real. What I write is truly how I feel, how I experience. I’m not artificial yet. I’m a biological human with real feelings and real emotions, and being human, more than anything else, means I can action irrationally, I can be erronemous, mislead, I’m mistake, therefore I prove I’m human. Though, and sadly it is coming, an AI will pass the Turing test and no one will be able to tell who’s real anymore.
Briefly, the Internet was about meeting people.
It is now more and more about speaking to a mirror. Though our depravation is a huge part of what makes us human, an AI can indeed simulate it and even engage in 1-to-1 text conversation. By the way, IRL “meeting” places have already become specific apps marketed to a very targeted audience.
Will people switch to IRL as a result of the AI revolution? My experience is that people usually avoid IRL unless 1) they are already comfortable with the person 2) they have a very specific need to satiate (sex). Screens make them feel secure and in control. Random IRL meetups challenge that.
I think the majority will continue to speak to the mirror; even knowing the truth, they’ll prefer their fantasy world. They’ll all become bodyless betas.
The alphas actually pushing their cocks in real vaginas will be a minority, and what White-adjacent Asian sluts like you (aka “the blessed”) should be looking for IMO.
you are even slipping in your proof reading..letting typos pass! you need a good ass fucking from some white devil BADLY!!
My kind of female: submissive, asian, and kinky.
But is it really better? You’ll only be broken as long as you wish to remain broken.
wow these type of stories are erotic and leave me with so much passion…I have ask, how do we find these type of Asian to make these stories come alive in the real world?
I also need direction in my search for these asian women irl