My son is 18+ just FYI.

The first time it happened was purely by accident. I used to run a small side business out of my house after my divorce where I advertised erotic massages to upscale clients and there was one customer in particular who has been a regular and one time he came in a few hours before his appointment and my son answered the door for him and he told my son that (and I quote) “I’m your mom’s friend and I’m coming over to talk to her about something.” He said this just as I was coming down the stairs and those words stuck with me.

I was extremely humiliated because I always arranged for my son to be at his dad’s place when I had customers book their appointment and I tried to talk him out of the appointment because my son was there but he said he had a business meeting later that day and there was no other time available for him. 
Being a single mother, I was desperate for money at the time and so I swallowed my pride and shamefacedly went upstairs with my customer. I stripped naked and gave him a naked full body massage all the while knowing that my son was able to hear everything that was going on in the next room.

After the customer was gone my son confronted me about what I was doing and I confessed to him that mommy has been running a bit of side business and he asked me if I was having sex with my customers and I firmly told him no, and I said that “mommy never do that. I only gave massages to them and I use my body to make my customers feel good.”

But that didn’t satisfy his curiosity apparently because throughout the night he peppered me with questions such as “Are you completely naked when you massage your customers? Do you let your customers play with your tits and your pussy? Do you bath your customers after they are done? Do they cum on your body.”

I tried to be as evasive as possible but my son just kept on interrogating me and I felt like a prisoner to my own lies. And he even started searching for porn videos where women did nude massage for their customers and showed them to me and asked me if this was how I served my customers.

Ever since then, my son has become obsessed with me. He constantly felt me all over my body. I used to walk around naked in front of my son and before he has been touching me once in a while but after that incident he has been touching me non-stop. He even started to sleep with me and when he slept with me, I could feel my son’s boner poking at me and it made me feel both ashamed and excited.

And another rule that my son had with me was that I must not leave the door to my bedroom closed when I had customers over. He said he wanted to make sure that I was safe when I had customers over but I know he was in fact spying on me. I know this because after my customers were gone he would ask me to repeat what I did for my customers, such as licking his feet and licking his anus and armpits. I told my son that it’s not appropriate but he would tell me that “you do it with your customers.”

I felt very conflicted and the worst thing happened when my regular customer showed up again because I’ve indeed been having sex with my regular customer because he tips me alot and this time he showed up and we ended up 69-ing and he cummed inside my mouth and I swallowed.

After he was gone my son asked me if I would ever suck his cock and swallow his cum and I said no, but then my son asked me why you would do it with your customers and I didn’t have a good answer. He said, “I saw you doing it mom. Stop lying to me. I’m not stupid.”

I told my son that I am willing to do anything for him but just not the sexual things because I think it’s not right, and my son said that from now on he wanted me to bath him, sleep with him, lick his feet, and rim his asshole, suck his cock and swallow his cum, just like what I do for my customers. I told my son that I could only do four out of six of what he demanded. Sucking my own son’s cock and swallowing his cum is, how should I say it, too hard for me to swallow.

And because of what my son knows about me, he has been more and more emboldened in his treatment of me. He wouldn’t allow me to wrap my naked body with a towel after I take a shower and even when I do have a towel around my body he would yank it away from me and so I always end up walking around naked in the house and he would intentionally put me in humiliating situations. For instance, when he has friends come over, he would make me answer the door naked. Same thing with delivery guys, plumbers, electricians, who come to our house. He made me expose myself in front of those complete strangers.

My son also watches porn in front of me and would simulate whatever he saw in those pornos and test it on me. For instance, if he saw that the woman in pornos had her panties stuffed in her mouth, he did the same to me. For instance, when I was taking a shower, I would leave my panties hanging on the door knob, and after I come out of the shower, he would yank my towel away from me, and then try to stick my own panties inside my mouth.

If he saw the woman in pornos had her tits slapped, he did the same to me. Especially during the summer when it’s really hot. My son would use every occasion to slap my tits. A few times even in front of his friends.

He has also tried sticking his fingers inside my pussy and one time he even tried sticking a pen into my asshole, telling me that he saw guys do it to women in porn.

And he told me that his dream is turn me into his personal porn actress. I told him that this is so wrong but he says since I’m already a whore, it’s a small step to become a porn actress and besides, I would make more money. I understand that my son is going through that phase in life where he is obsessed with sex and he needs a female in his life to release his sexual energy, and because he doesn’t have a girlfriend and still a virgin, I feel it’s my duty as his mother to educate him sexually. As well as to provide a outlet for his sexual frustration. And so, so far, I have been doing everything I can to accommodate his advances. I never say no to my son.

But deep inside I also feel that what my son is doing to me is wrong but I love him so much I can’t stop satisfying all his demands.

Maybe I’ve spoiled him, but my love for him is too much and I do feel guilty for being a whore. I think I am wrong in the first place and so I cave all my son’s demands to ease the guilt on my conscience.

My son tells me he masturbates to me nearly everyday and he says he loves me and wishes I was his girlfriend. I said that’s not so not appropriate for a son to say to his mother but I was also flattered.

When I go to clean his room I always see cum on the floor in his bedroom and I have even found his cum on my panties as well. I feel very pessimistic about the whole situation. I think it’s just a matter of time before my son can’t control himself anymore and start fucking me and I don’t know how I can refuse him.